Its getting a little unreal to me, the fact that im about to have a 2nd child. i'll be 38 weeks tomorrow, and a part of me feels like im still in august, when i first found out. We tried for SO LONG to conceive this baby...and there were times i would cry for hours, believing for some reason that God didnt want to give us the baby we so desperately wanted. Now here i am, anywhere from MINUTES to WEEKS away from going into labor.
I'm every possibly emotion you could name lol!
I just want to meet her already! i want to hold her in my arms, instead of in my body. I am looking forward to labor with such excitement, instead of the dread I did with addy. When i was pregnant with her, i was so young (barely turned 19 before she was born) and didnt really know what to expect. so it scared me and i knew that it would hurt and that scared me more. and i believe that my attitude towards the "big mean labor" was what CAUSED me to have such a bad labor experience. Stuck in the bed for 26 hours, starving, not allowed to walk around or anything, and an epidural that wasnt working. It was horrible.
this time, i am using a Doula. She is the nicest woman and VERY experienced. she is currently studying to be a Midwife also! This amazing organization, http://operationspecialdelivery.com , is providing her at no cost to me, bc of that fact that Chris is deployed. I am so blessed to be able to experience everything naturally this way. I am 150% behind a no drug, nature all the way birth this time! That means, No IV (they will put a port in tho, just in case), no epi, no constant monitoring, walking the halls, using my birthing ball, massage, aromatherapy, positive thinking, kind of birth. My body was made to do this...and im excited to finally do it!