Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Lessons Learned

Its amazing what you DONT learn in high school or college. That thought just randomly hit me today, as i was standing back and watching my best friend recieve condolences at her childs memorial today.

School doesnt teach you what to say, do, or how to act, in situations like this. sure, if a random stranger walks up to me and asks what 5 times 5 is, i can rattle off an answer. But what am i supposed to do to make this all better?

I was talking to an old classmate at the memorial today. He and I used to be in NJROTC together. we talked and laughed, along with jess and justin, over some old stories and old drama from then. He was next to me when i came to the conclusion of how useless high school can be when it comes to our futures. I asked him "Daniel, did you ever think we would be here, doing this, living life like this? Watching our 2 best friends burying their child?" and he pointed out to me that we can never truly know what is going to happen from one day to the next.

I found a quote that helped me a little. It reminded me of who my TRUE Teacher is, and how thankful i should be that He is the one who truly knows what lies ahead.

"God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way."

sorry to ramble, and if some of this didnt make sense. Its just been an emotional few weeks and i wanted to get it all out...or atleast a little bit of it out lol

Monday, February 22, 2010

blah blah blahhhh

so, the swelling has begun. ugh. my least fave part of preggo-ness. late at night and early mornings my hands decide to balloon up like the Michelin man and i had to freaking take off all my rings yesterday. most of you know that i flat out REFUSE to leave my house unless i have my wedding rings on, so i guess its time to go get a fake bigger sized ring to wear, since i cant re size my wedding band or engagement ring anymore. boohoo. but as far as complaints go, thats a pretty minor one, dontcha think?

Everything else is going really good. im 30 weeks and 4 days, only 6 weeks till Delilah Mary will be here. its a little nerve wracking to think that she will be here SO soon!

Addy is doing great. shes been fully potty trained for almost 9 months and boy is it a blessing to not have to change diapers or pull ups lol! i joke around, saying i potty trained her just in time to get a mini break from diapers, then Lilah will pop out and i get to do it alllll over again. haha. Her b-day is in less than 2 weeks. my baby is going to be 3 :( yup, having a hard time with that actually. I cant believe how fast she has grown up, and for the life of me cannot figure out where the time has gone!

My momma is visiting this week and im on cloud 9!!! not to mention, my dad also flies in this week too,so that's the cherry topping right there! Addy and I haven't seen my dad in months and months and months, so it'll be great to spend time with him and momma! It'll also be his first time seeing my house, even tho Chris and I have owned it for just under a year! time to show it off to him :)

Off to do a few errands. pretty boring update to my life, but oh well. I'd rather life a boring life of contentment, than an exciting life of i right?

Friday, February 19, 2010

Hard Times

Gosh, this past week has been super hard. Started out good, and then monday i got some news that brought me to my very best friend lost her baby. she was halfway thru her pregnancy, so her labor had to be induced.

Jessica is one of the strongest women i know. this is her 3rd loss, but she doesnt let that affect the way she lives her life. she misses her babies, but knows they are in a good place, with God. Her husband Justin, who i call my bubba, was in afghanistan when she lost the baby. after many many calls to the red cross and his superiors, he was finally allowed emergency family leave. He didnt make it home in time for the birth, but he did get here the day after, in time to get Zachariah LeClair baptized.

He was born sleeping, and extremely fragile, late Wednesday night. I held Jessicas hand thru the entire ordeal. She never once complained, and only cried once when the pain was getting bad and Justin still wasnt there. Again, she is one of the strongest people in my life.

I got to hold an angel that night, and i can say he has forever changed my life. Just bc he never took a breathe, doesnt mean he wasnt so loved by so many people. We will all miss him.

I love you, Jessica and Justin. and RIP to our little monkey.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Bad Day

Today is a bad day. a depressing, jealous, hormonal kinda day.

That is all.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Smile, even when you dont want to

hmmm...where to start on updates, lol?

so most of you saw my U/S pics from thursday. Delilah is growing so well! Doc said she looked perfect, when she called me friday morning with the results. On a bad note, my placenta previa hasnt gotten better at all. so boooo on that. I have my next U/S in 6 weeks (ill be 34 weeks at it) and if it is still there, or has moved and is still really low, then we will be schedualing a c-section for within 2 weeks.

Alot of people have asked me why they want to take her so early. Well, placenta previa is where the babies placenta covers the mothers cervix. so basically, if i suddenly went into labor right now, there is no where for the baby to come out vaginally. and for some who have it, when they start to dialate, it causes the placenta to detach from the uterus, causing a placental abruption, which can have dire consequences for both momma and baby. And since I went into pre-term labor with Addison at 32 weeks and was having contractions every 2 minutes, they are concerned about that happening again with this pregnancy.

C Sections scare the CRAP outta me! but ill save that can of worms for a whole diff blog as my due date gets closer lol!!!

My birthday is coming up! woohoo! its in a week, and im excited! im ready to NOT be 21 anymore lol! and the day after my bday is v-day, which i get to spend with my mini me <3

Speaking of my mini me, Addison's 3rd birthday is coming up way too fast lol!!! i STILL have no idea what i am doing for it! ahhh, i cant believe my baby girl will be 3! C-A-RAZZZZZY!

where on earth is the pause button, lol?

Thursday, February 4, 2010

28 Week Ultrasound

just got back from my ultrasound! it was AMAZING!!!!!! Delilah is still a girl, lol! she weighs a little under 3lbs and is measuring great!

here are a few of the U/S pics

Caught her picking her nose lol!

Shes got her Daddys HUGE feet

Mommys wide nose

Her chubby fingers, also from mommy lol

her smiling, and im pretty sure she has Chris's Chin :)

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Public Service Announcement

so i decide to check my live feed, at the suggestion of my friend, and see lovely little kansas popping up on it a few times.

Please do me a favor, person in Kansas. stop checking on my blog, my myspace, my BG. I DO NOT check your things, bc i personally do not care to know what is going on in your life. I wish you all the best and hold no ill feelings towards you, i just have written you off.

so forget about me and move on.

ok, to all my great friends. that is the end of my PSA lol! Gotta finish writing out my baby shower invites :)

life update coming in a day or 2, when im not so crazy busy :)