Friday, December 31, 2010

2010 Year End Review in Pics

Saturday I will be starting my project 365, posting a new random pic everyday. a little description will go along with every pic. and at the end of that year,  i plan on publishing all the photos in a coffee table book. Great way to remember a year, huh?

In honor of this great year coming to an end, here is a review of what has happened to us here at Inside The Insanity...in pics ;)
















Goodbye 2010. Thank you for all the blessing you brought on my family and I.

2011...gimme your best shot ;)

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Slow the eff down!!!!!!!!

Have you ever stopped and just been like "where the hell has the time gone?". seriously.

Seriously seriously seriously.

Itty Bitty turned 7 month old yesterday. As i was posting that on FB, it hit me out of nowhere....that time is moving way too fast. Itty Bitty is 7 months, Princess will be 4 in 3 months, Sailor Man and i have our 5 year anniversary next month, I will be 23 in 2 months (him in 3), and Itty's first bday is in 5 months.

WHAT.THE. HECK????????

First and foremost. 5 years. WOW. that is a LONG time. Especially for two kids who were a statistic with a pregnancy during their teen years. The cards were deff stacked against us. Heck, we had only been dating 5 months when we got pregnant with Princess. Most kids our age wouldn't, and didnt, last. But we did <3 I was talking to my mom a few weeks ago and mentioned our anniversary coming up. I told her I wanted to plan a big weekend getaway for us. And she agreed! She told me how proud of us she is, how far we have come and accomplished. Even she couldn't believe it has been that long already lol! 5 year may be a small portion of time for my friends that have been married much longer...but it is nothing to sneeze at when you are only 22 lol!

2nd. 4yeard old. 4 years old. 4 YEARS OLD. my eyes water just thinking about it. Its not possible. its not. For some reason,her turning 4 is harder on me than her 2nd or 3 bday. (not as hard as her 1st tho thank gosh lol). im not sure why. maybe its bc at 4, she is no longer classified as a toddler. maybe its bc she starts school this year. maybe its bc it has all flown by so fast. i dont know.

7 months now, 12 months wayyyy too soon. I cant even fathom that. Itty Bitty needs to STAY my itty bitty baby. please. please. please.

I dont think you can truly appreciate how fast time flies by...until you are married and have children. You spend your whole childhood hoping the days and weeks and years fly by, so you can be an adult and get to the "fun stuff". and then before you know it, you ARE an adult and you are grasping at straws, trying to find anyway you can to slow down your life and your kids childhood.

its a sad sad  cycle.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Walk Down Memory Lane

Going thru all the old pics in my PB is NOT a good idea :( it makes me happy to remember the good times with friends, but sad about what all has happened since then :/ So many friendships have faded away, been torn apart, or just ended bc of drama. grrrr...






Now dont get me wrong...there are quite a few friendship I am glad that are over. Lets just say all the "crazies" should know who they are. but others were stupid fights or stupid drama that got way out of hand.

so whats a girl to do? I guess just sit back and be thankful for the memories, and wish those who im talking about a good and happy life.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

so ticked off

United States Postal Services is now on my sh*t list. and my post man will NOT be getting his usual holiday card and tip from me.

I was tracking 2 packages on monday. 2 packes that i was VERY excited to get. monday they both showed delivered at 12:34pm. My happy butt ran out to the mail box to get my things.

guess who had an empty mail box? THIS GIRL.

i waited a few more hours, in case the post man was scan happy and scanned it before he actually delivered. still never showed up. So i filed a complain with USPS and they promised a call back.

of course i never got one, so i called them again today. They said the case had been resolved and the packages had been correctly delivered to the address on record (i check and my right address was the right address on record). And guess who STILL doesnt have her packages? THIS GIRL.

I complained more and demanded a call back from anyone up the chain. once again, i got the hold shpeal about 2 business days. yea, like i really see that happening.

i'm so freaking irritated about this. One of my packages will be replaced by the sender, bc it was purchases by Amazon. but god knows how long it will take for them to get the wheels going on my replacement and this was kind of a time sensitive thing. My 2nd package? completly lost and theres no replacing it. There goes Delilah's winter shoes, mini Ugg look alikes i bought from another mama on FB.

Great. just great.

i'm done with USPS. i will just pay extra from now on and ship thru UPS.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Judgement

hmmm. im not even sure what to title this blog yet. im sure by the end, it will have a name.

Princess is watching a new disney movie and Itty bitty is rolling around on the floor, and giggling. such happy girls. Sailor Man has duty, so we are just enjoying a lazy night at home.

Earlier today, I had to run up to Winn Dixie to get a few stables. I used WIC to get the milk, eggs, and fruit. I just got put on WIC last month. I was so very much against using it unless you ABSOLUTELY need it. We did use it back in 2007,  when Princess was a baby. I was thrilled when Itty Bitty took so well to breastfeeding. Breastfeeding equals no formula which equals no WIC.

then 4 months later she had to be put on formula and my butt had to go off to WIC. which to me was...well..i dont even know what to say. I hate that we are able to take care of ourselves and bills well...but when it comes to formula... DAMN that stuff is expensive.

anyways, thats the back story. Like i was saying, I went to WD to get some stuff using my WIC checks. and got treated horribly. The cashier was very judgemental. As soon as we got to the register and she saw me pull out the checks, her entire attitude changed. she went from smiling, to scowling. She saw me dividing my stuff up and putting non WIC items at the back of the register (to buy myself). she rudely told me "you know, your WIC isnt going to pay for ketchup." I replied "Yes, Ma'am. I know that. Thats why i separated it, to pay for it myself."

and then she rolled her freaking EYES at me! and muttered "Damn, this is the 8th WIC checkout today. Where are they coming from?" in a very condescending tone. She rang up my fruit (WIC provides $10 worth of fruit or veggies a month) and told me, once again VERY rudely, "If your total goes over, you will have to pay for this yourself. WIC wont pay for everything for you". and i once again was very polite in my response "Yes Ma'am, I added the weights and prices myself, I have exactly $9.10 in fruit" (i was on the penny, oooh yea lol).

Lastly...and this is what really got me to. She said (with a fake smile on her face) "wow, the state just pays for more and more for you people these days huh?".

and with that, i told her goodbye with and equally fake smile and marched straight to the floor manager. i myself used to be a Winn Dixie employee and manager and i remember how things work around there. After I got thru reaming the manager a new one, for having an cashier on the floor who obviously had NO customer service training and demanding they be fired or retrained, I left. And let me tell you...as i was walking out, i saw that same manager practically FLYING across the front floor, murder in his eyes, heading right for that cashier.

Serves her right.

Monday, November 8, 2010

its rediculous

(yes im sure i spelled the title wrong. i just dont feel like correcting it, thank you very much)

ok first off...i TOTALLY understand that some docs may feel people abuse the system and fake pain to get narcotics/pain meds from them. i get it. i know there are people out there that truly do that, bc they are sick mentally and have a problem with addiction.

but when you get a 22 year old wife and mother on your table, with no history or signs of drug abuse, who can barely walk a straight line from the pain, who HAS a history of cysts and KNOWS what it feels like, who is curled up in a ball on the table crying, who begs you to be more gentle when you do an exam bc of the extreme pain...dont treat her like a junkie trying to get a quick high.

and bc of you, Doctor So and So...I am still in extreme pain. worse than the pain, i feel degraded and embarrassed. you MADE me feel like I was lying about the pain, and only came in for whatever prescription you would write me. even tho i was already crying from the pain, YOU made me feel so low, so dirty, that i cried even more.

thank you for that. thank you.

stupid effing doctor.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Doodle Dypes Review


Ahhh, i finally have a minute to sit down and post this review! ive been meaning to for MONTHS!

First off...these are my absolute GO-TO diapers. I use them above else. I also own more of them than I do any other cloth diaper! my CD guru, Paige, is the one who introduced them to me. shes also the one who told me about GoodMama diapers too. Anywho, back to Doodle Dypes. I could write out a long blog about the type of material and soaker and etc. but to be honest...i would probably end up confusing you more than helping you lol.

Long description short, they are amazing. yup yup! They are a one size diaper, meaning they can fit anywhere from 8lbs to 35lbs+. (there is a smaller version of the diaper, for babies that arent quite 8lbs). Thats right. This one diaper will last and fit thru your childs entire diaper time Era. The closure on the diaper is snaps (which i prefer), hence it being able to fit for so long. Child gets a little chunky, just snap the diaper closed loser than before and BAM you've gone up a size and didnt need to buy a new diaper :) Simple as that!

IMO, the BEST part of Doodles? they have a hidden waterproof layer! Meaning you get a super cute and soft Dype and dont have to hide it with a ugly waterproof cover! SCORE! lol Plus...they are SUPER reasonably priced AND she offers a military discount!

The customer service for DD is freaking AMAZING! Sandy is the owner and she is such a sweetheart. As we were getting closer to Sailor Mans HC, i ordered a Dynky Doodle (newborn version of the bigger doodle dype). I was worried it wouldnt fit her at HC, so i shot a quick email to Sandy (my first ever correspondence with her). I explained to her that Sailor Man would be home in less than a month, Itty Bitty needed a new bigger diaper, and wanted to know when she stocked her store so i could get one. Instead of making me wait, she put everything on hold and busted out a brand new doodle dype right then and there, for Itty bitty! She also THANKED me for choosing her to make such a special diaper and said it was an honor. I cried when i read that, bc it was just so sweet!

The Dynky Doodle and full size Doodle Dype

Wearing her Doodle Dype AI2, the first time she met Daddy!

After such amazing customer service and the 2 cutest diapers i had ever seen now in my possession...I was totally hooked lol!

What REALLY got to me today and reminded me that i needed to finally post a blog like this...was a little surprise i got in the mail. Bc i referred a customer to Sandy who placed a pretty big order...Sandy sent me a free Doodle! and boy, did she pick out THE cutest fabric for it!!!!

So thats really all i can think of adding about my most fave dypes. How about some more pics? lol!

(the orange diaper isnt a Doodle, its actually a Katydid. Only pic i had of my skulls and heart Doodle, sorry!)





I have more, but these are all the pics I have on my computer right now. hmmmmm, i think that means i need to have a DD photo session soon ;)

To anyone interested in Doodle Dypes now that you have read my review, check out her FB page!
Doodle Dypes FB Page

and she stocks on her hyena cart, so make sure you start stalking it now! trust me, her diapers FLY as soon as she opens them to buying!!!

xoxo

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

my most important relationship

so i was driving around town today and a thought hit me... i don't talk about the most important relationship in my life. sure, i go on and on and on about Sailor Man, or Princess and Itty bitty. and yes, they are my life. But there is someone i put above them. God. i may have mentioned my faith once or twice in a blog, but not the way I should have. and even now, i may not go to church as often as others do...but i talk to Him daily...if not Hourly.

For so many years, i had the type of relationship with my Savior where i would only "talk" to Him if i felt i needed to. Some of you may know what i mean, those quick little desperate prayers you say when a relative is sick, or you hit a speed bump in life, or even when you are getting pulled over by a cop and REALLY don't need a ticket. I took the fact that he was there for granted. and i have to say...He was quite patient with me. He would give me a nudge every so often, reminding me that He was there, and all i needed to do was turn to Him. And i would...for a few days or weeks. nothing too major. Then I would stray again.

Until about 2 months ago.

2 months ago, I was brought to my knees. My world stopped turning. I walked away for days, in a fog, not even knowing how to breathe. I went into auto pilot, i was so numb. My future was completely wiped out and I had no idea what to do. My soul was exposed to the very core...and damn did it hurt.

I was just existing in this fog when suddenly a quote popped into my head "When life bring you to your knees, your in the perfect position to pray" (I've blogged previously, about a similar quote and how it helped me). And i realized...i WAS on my knees...crawling around blind and unfeeling. So i did what came oh so naturally...I got down on my knees, pressed my hands together, bowed my head...and talked. I talked to the person who had been waiting around since the day I was conceived, just waiting on me to fully open my heart to him. I kneeled in that position for a long time. i unloaded all my burdens, all my hurts and upsets, every doubt, every fear. Every single fiber of myself went out in that conversation with God. When i was finished, i threw back my arms and let out a good yell. My Way, of giving it all to God.

Afterwards it was amazing. the fog was gone. I was at peace. I was comforted.

Ever since that day, my life is A LOT less stress full. I feel like I am a much better wife, and a much better mother. I needed to go through such a trying time, BC it opened my eyes. Now i am REALLY seeing...for the first time

<3

Saturday, October 30, 2010

education education education

i need to go to school. like seriously.and after kicking around the idea for the past 4 1/2 years...its time for me to stop TALKING about it and just DO IT.

I want a career. as much as i absolutely ADORE staying home with my 2 beautiful daughters...i feel like I need more. does that make sense? I need to learn. i need to grow. i need to freaking go to school!

I have been accepted to UNF twice. once in 2006 and again  in 2008. amazingly, each time I get accepted...Sailor Man knocks me up. so I never end up going.

This time I applied to FSCJ (to break the UNF/pregnancy curse lol).

But right now im stuck between 2 major career choices. To be an RN, which is what I have wanted to do with a passion since I had Princess in 2007....or to be an elementary school teacher,which is what I have wanted to be since...well...forever!

Someone come make this decision for me :( yes, im whining. yes, its annoying. Deal with it lol

I'll update more when i make this life altering decision. oh. and one more thing...myCAA is incredibly confusing and irritating.

That is all

Nighty Night <3

Friday, October 29, 2010

flib flabbing fridays

so for the 2nd night in a row, im sitting out on my back porch with the laptop. i think this may be how i will blog from now on. its so nice out here, actually has a small chill in the air and im bundled up in a comforter lol. quite cozy.

hmmm. when was the last time i posted new pics on here? well, i cant remember, which means its time to update!!!! some pics of the girls from today, trick or treating at the zoo in their costumes, me at the carrie underwood concert, and one of Itty Bitty in the new ERGObaby carrier that i freaking LOOOOOVE!!!














Thats all ive got for ya'll tonight. Have a blessed night!

oh, and side note to a friend going thru some tough family times right now...I'm praying for you Miss J. <3 xoxo

Thursday, October 28, 2010

just some random ramblings

well hello there miss blog. long time no see, as usual. im sure you are tired of my sorry excuses and the way i have been treating you. but please just try to bear with me for a little bit longer as i hopefully get back into the swing of blogging regularly lol!

anywho. how has everyone been? anything exciting going on?
things have been the same here on the family front. Princess is getting smarter and smarter everyday. she kills me with how fast she is growing up! :( until i was a parent, i neverunderstood how bitter sweet birthdays could be! she will be turning 4 in march...ahhhhh! :/ Itty bitty, on the other hand, isnt so itty bitty anymore lol. she will be 6 months on the 6th! can you believe it? carazy! we have been supplementing with formula for the past 2 months. and as much as i hated having to do it, i know now in my heart that it was the right decision. in the first month alone, she gained 2lbs that she desperately needed! she has her 6 month well baby on the 8th, so i will update then on how much more weight she has gained. shes getting chunky (finallllly!) so im excited to see the final numbers!

Sailor man is going hollywood! lol! no but seriously, he is. He and a few other sailors from the ship have been casted as extras in the new movie, Battleship! pretty cool huh? im prety sure he is just one of many who will be sitting around in some scene, but HEY! its still a major movie lol!

For the many many many peoples who have been asking, YES we are still cloth diapering. and YES i have plans in the future to update my CD blog and to start posting reviews. I just get so side tracked that i forget lol.

My mom had her surgery on her spine to repair one of her disks and to clean up some bonespurs. She is recovering nicely, but its a long road and prayers would still be greatly appreciated!

and here is a little rant for all of ya'll tonight lol. We had to resod our front lawn last month and paid just under $900. once the sod was done, our landscaper told us to water it for 30 mins, 3 times a day. lo and behold, we get our first JEA bill and HOLY SHIZNIT its freaking $450!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so we are kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place...stop watering as frequently and save money on our water bill...but risk losing our expensive as crap grass. lovely huh? awwwww,the joys of being a homeowner lol!

welp ladies and gents. thats all ive got for ya tonight. im sitting outside on my patio right now, the night is GORG, and i think im just going to kick back and relax.

night <3

Thursday, October 7, 2010

30 Days- Day 23

day 23- something you crave for a lot

hmm. this can be taken diff ways. Like a craving for food, or a craving for other things.
If its food...i dont have a usual craving lol. I bounce between wanting different things day to day.
If its for something different...then my biggest craving would be affection. dont get me wrong, I get a ton from my kids and husband. But im a biiiiiig PDA person lol and Sailor Man isnt. He has come a long way tho, and for that I love him more than life <3

Monday, October 4, 2010

30 Days- Day 22

day 22- what makes you different from everyone else

There are 2 people responsible for making me an individual, and not just another follower. they have made me comfortable in my own skin, and helped me embrace everything that makes me ME. And I respect them as much as I love them.

My Parents <3

Oh, and I might as well say it (especially since you both said I would thank ya'll one day). THANK YOU for being as strict as you were while I was growing up. Lord knows I needed it :)

30 Days- Day 21

day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy



When I look at my 2 beautiful daughters...How can I NOT be happy?

Monday, September 27, 2010

30 Days- Day 20

day 20- someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future


This Man. Forever and Always

30 Days- Day 19

day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them

Well, if you knew me in HS, then you probably called me Kay.
If you are one of my relatives, you usually addresses me as Mickey.
Mouse is my pet name from my momma
Squirt is what my dad called me when i was little.
If your my husband, then you refer to me as babe, or baby cakes.
If you are Erica or Courtney, you usually call me Mik (lazy butts shortened my name lol)

But my most favorite nickname of all is the one I'm called every single day.... Mommy <3

Saturday, September 25, 2010

This...

...isnt fair.


But its whatever.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

30 days- day 18

day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have

To be honest...i dont have a lot of far off/looong term goals. I try to focus on the here and now. Live each day like it may possibly be my last. and having said that, i DO have a few short term goals.
for example, Sailor Man and i are doing a complete overhaul on our house. We are in the process of having our front lawn resodded. When that is done this week, we are going to tackle the rest of the landscaping. Replacing the rocks that line the house with some mulch, adding bushes, possibly a fountain, etc. We also purchased a patio set (which i fell in love with and got for 50% off woot woot!!!) and will be working on our backyard when we are finished with the front.

thats about all ive got for ya right now. Itty Bitty is awake and demanding my attention aka boob lol

30 Days- day 17

day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Hmm...ive been giving this some thought for a while. And i actually have a few people I would like to switch places with for a little bit. I would like to switch places with my parents, so they can each have a day with no stress or physical pain. I would like to switch with my husband, so we can walk a day in eachothers shoes and truly see what the other goes thru. I would like to switch with a random stranger, just bc it would be interesting and totally out of my comfort zone. and lastly...i would love to switch with each of my daughters. To be a little girl again, with no worries or fears or bills or stressors or anything...that would be amazing. bc lets be honest...they both live a pretty blessed (aka SPOILED) life lol!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

30 Days- day 16

(yes i am catching up on all that i missed recently. so shoot me.)

day 16- another picture of yourself

Not sure how old i am in this photo...im guessing maybe 8 or so. But this is me and my dad. Poor guy used to suffer thru me playing 'beauty parlor' all the time lol. He is having surgery tomorrow to fix his right bicep tendon and prayers or good thoughts sent his way would be greatly appreciated <3

30 Days- Day 15

day 15- put you ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play



  1. Red, white, and Blue by Brian McKnight and Rascal Flatts
  2. Every Other Weekend by Reba McEntire and Kenny chesney
  3. East to West by Casting Crowns (if you havent listened to this song, you NEED TO!)
  4. The Way I Loved You by Taylor Swift
  5. What About Now by Daughtry
  6. 19 and Crazy by Bomshel
  7. Vanilla Twilight by Owl City
  8. My First Kiss by 3OH!3 and Ke$ha
  9. Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (my absolute FAVE song in the world!!!)
  10. Sleeping with the Telephone by Reba McEntire and Faith Hill
Yea my playlist has a lot of everything, but is predominately country music :)